Alone

While I was thinking why am I alone I can say that I had some relationships that have failed, not from my end or the other end but it was just not meant to be, being alone for like 5 years now taught me that the right person would never leave me, I was thinking if relationships really last that long, I guess we do not deserve that much pleasure in life, the only thing I have now is my gut feeling and an empty bed. Feeling this type of sorrow taught me that no matter how lonely you feel you are not alone in this world, some people out there feel there is nobody for them, and I feel the same, we just feel alone while so many people are around us, we do not cherish the time we have with each other.

Thinking we might find better or the right one in the future we miss the present and do not enjoy it fully as it comes, too bad many people left me with a broken heart, as much as I wanted to be with them it just would not work.

There is a right way and a wrong way of doing things and I just guess things went wrong because they never stayed until the end, this world is full of loneliness and broken dreams, some of you might have a lot of pleasure but it's only real when shared with somebody, so I guess I have to break those images and patterns in my mind that I will ever find the right person for me in my life.

I just guess I failed and that's all, I don't cling to somebody that does not love or respect me anymore, as much as I want them back, time will make us never see each other again, nobody knows what would have happened if they stayed because that is a reality that never happened. Alone is the new relationship status for me then.