Eyes Of The Books

  I actually like reading a lot of books, after I finish one I grab the next, I feel like reading is very useful for me, because I want to know a lot of stuff and what's going on in the world in different domains, I can't say I only read fantasy books but I also read personal development, economy and novels, I like various subjects when I read so I try to diversify my reading material so I know a lot of stuff from a lot of domains, I think if people would read more books they become smarter and sharper in the mind, I like to fortify my mind as they say because I am a strong individual and I like to be independent in my thinking, reading books helps the body and the mind alot, when you read your muscles relax and your brain starts working, I love reading because it is time for myself to just relax and enjoy a story, different books offer different results I don't think any book is the same from the other unless it's a copy of that. If I would not read books I would not h...

  As far as I am concerned with my gaming future career is that if I don't quit and always try to do more than expected I might succeed , although there is not a big chance for me to win on youtube but I always try to do my best and try not to over do it, because I might get burnout from working too much, it's not easy being a writer and a streamer at the same time but if I know I could monetize it then I might think about doing it, it's not easy to monetize on youtube but my chances are pretty good if I don't quit, maybe not this year or the next year but I still have to try to boost up my gaming career even if people have not found it yet, the problem is not that they don't like it, the problem is that they have not found my content yet, because if you find something you might look at it that it's useful but they don't see it, they have not find my videos, just like this blog, if they find the right people i might get a boost of viewers and it's not ea...

  I like playing video games when I have nothing to do, but I remain still confident in my skills even if I win or lose, we have to have that mentality that we can do anything we dream of, sometimes I want more chances in this life to develop my skills in confidence, I think being confident in any situation is a great moral boost, if you can think it, you can do it, so try to be more confident each and every day to make your life better, it's very important to be confident in your own powers, this drive that we have moves us forward and to the end of our journey here on earth, confidence is key to most relationships also, if you see a beautiful girl and you want to talk to her you have to be a little confident, to make it work, it's important to be confident in everything you do, in video games, in writing, in streaming almost everything needs confidence , and if you're mentally strong you will do even better than others, so a little confidence never killed nobody, keep try...

  Day by day it's going pretty good, I think progress is made when you don't give up what you do, sometimes I feel like doing so much more while some days I don't feel like it no more, I think that if you can think it you can make it, so let down your thoughts and process this, I don't always feel super cool and awesome, still sometimes I feel like a God but some days I feel like shit, it's ok, I still go on this path of life. It's my life and I choose how I live it, I don't feel great every day but that's ok, feelings come and go, but my love for my work will never fail. I think the most powerful force in the world is love, the more you can love the more you can do, I think you have to have some kind of perseverance and will to do the things you want to do, you have to not give up and keep on doing it until you make it, of course I may not be like those other guys you see, or be even cool and cocky , I think in my own way I am awesome, I think confidenc...

While I was thinking why am I alone I can say that I had some relationships that have failed, not from my end or the other end but it was just not meant to be, being alone for like 5 years now taught me that the right person would never leave me, I was thinking if relationships really last that long, I guess we do not deserve that much pleasure in life, the only thing I have now is my gut feeling and an empty bed. Feeling this type of sorrow taught me that no matter how lonely you feel you are not alone in this world, some people out there feel there is nobody for them, and I feel the same, we just feel alone while so many people are around us, we do not cherish the time we have with each other. Thinking we might find better or the right one in the future we miss the present and do not enjoy it fully as it comes, too bad many people left me with a broken heart, as much as I wanted to be with them it just would not work. There is a right way and a wrong way of doing things and I just gu...

  Every morning I wake up and thank God for a new day, it's wired sometimes I have these realistic dreams almost can't make the difference between them and reality when I sleep, I don't know why they seem so real, and suddenly I wake up in the middle of the night thinking it was just a dream, I can't see the difference in the dream but when I wake up I'm like, what was that? Suddenly I feel at peace just knowing it was a dream because it was not nice, not all my dreams are nice, some of them I don't even understand them, it's just images, when I wake up i realize it's just a dream but sometimes when I was younger I also had these kind of dreams that I did not want to end, so I woke up and go to sleep again just for the dream to continue, I can't explain too much about dreams because I also don't know what they mean, sometimes it gets wild and I can't even control them. If they do have a meaning I don't think it's a good one, sometimes...